In a bad need for Crying

My Future

2011 TA at Cairo University
2012 IBM Senior engineer
2015 IBM head of R&D Department
2017 making pilgrim with my family
2019 My husband Greatest invention
2020 General Manager of Mentor Graphics in Middle east
2025 Nobel Prize for the fastest least way for power consumption and minimum size for Electronically staff
2027 Head of Computer Department in Cairo University
2030 Celebrating the graduation of my daughter from high school
2031 Traveling the world with my beloved family
2035 the opening of an Orphanage that hold all orphans in Egypt
2037 the birth of my first grand Child
2040 A company of CECU will be the most leading company in hardware and software invention
2045 Egypt will be a better place for our children to live in
2050 will travel the world searching for its secrets and meditating till the end of my life which will not be enough :D

At first I was annoyed , angry , frustrated
I felt as the whole world was against me
as that I am no longer welcome
I felt that I was maltreated , oppressed and disrespected
and more over that I was a big burden noone can handle it any longer
I was angry
annoyed
every single bad word can be said
I was sad
and I went from this state to whatever state
who cares and kept stuck between two states
going back and forward
Actually I but myself into this
this what happens when we don't make our priorities right
it never was about me never will
that was a wrong way I walked into
and get hurt alot
and I didn't notice that this was a sign to go back
I lost my way for so long
but this is ENOUGH
no more
no more
I won't let anything break my will
I will achieve my All my Dreams
All of them

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و ايه هو معني الحياة لو فقدنا الإحساس بالأمان
لو أقرب الناس لينا فقدنا الثقة فيهم
إزاي نعيش في بيت واحد
إزاي لما الدنيا تقسي عليا اجري و استخبه في حضنك
ازاي يبقي حميها حراميها
ياه يا دنيا غدرا اوي
ليه كيده
ليـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــه
حرام عليكي
يا رتني ما عشت ولا جيه اليوم ده
يا ريتني ما عشت ولا شوفت اليوم ده
ليـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــه
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ليـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــه

حنين

في حالة شوق و حنين
لناس رحوا و مش راجعين
مهما عدا الزمان
انا مش مصدقه
فعلا خلاص
مش راجعين
وحشتوني اوييييييي
مفتقدكم اوي
بحبكم اوي