The Truth

People don't see the truth
People don't see it now but soon enough they will realize it
My presence is just a pain to every one
a hurt
all I am doing is just talk
they see that I give hope or that I am nice
but they don't see that I have failed in doing everything
every little thing
and no matter how I try to set things right I fail
fail fail fail
I keep trying but the more time pass the more hurt I cause
to everyone
I have FAILED and I admit it
study Failed
Friendship Failed
Project Failed
HR Deep Failure
AI Deep Failure
Family Failed
People I hurt or easier say people I haven't hurt
people forgive me because they think I am good
but actual I don't even deserve
I deserve nothing
and nothing at all
I wish I have died long years ago
I wish I hadn't come in those people lives
I wish I had ever deserved what they gave me
but what a regret could do now
the hurt is done
and nothing is set to change it
and I am really WORTHLESS
I wish I were painless but time doesn't go back doesn't go back
I have been living for no significant reason
just because I am breathing
I keep doing things as they are asked but even I do them wrong
but All is left is faith don't make me lose it please
please
please
please
please
the last thing remaining
ya Rab

ما الحب الا للحبيب الأول

نقّل فؤادك حيث شئت من الهوى ما الحب الا للحبيب الأول

و كم من منزل في الارض يألفه الفتى و حنينه ابدا لأول منزل

يا رب

و يبقي الزمن سائر
و يتوقف القلب عن الإحساس
و تستمر الألام
و لم يبقي ملجأ لنا إلي إليك
يا رب
يا رب
يا رب
يا رب
يا رب
يا رب
يا رب

failed

when everything fall apart
when just you are torn to parts
when your tears refuse to go down because it think that you don't deserve
when words refuse to be said
when all is left is anger and refusal
I hope one day People could forgive me for what I did and understand
I hope God forgive me
but I really don't want to be here anymore
I have failed
failed failed